I went for RV’s Young Adults Retreat on Saturday morning. I struggled to get out of bed at 8 in the morning and drive 50kms to Serpentine. When I got there, I realised that I didn’t know a single soul. A part of me wanted to turn around and drive back to the city and back home. But then I thought since I’m here I might as well make the best of it.

Often, if you put faith and trust in God, He always shows you the way. I started talking to his guy who was sitting by himself, and we realised that we’d met each other briefly before, when I was still talking to ricki. Story is, he was homeless and I’d offered to give him a lift to see this guy’s house. And there, I was, a few months later, faced with the same guy. It just felt so surreal. So, because of Hudson, I got introduced to a few other people who then introduced me to a few other people. Before I knew it, I was having an awesome time playing board games, attending skills session and just interacting with other young Christians.

The most amazing thing during the retreat was Sarah’s baptism. She was my room mate and we shared a brief testimony with each other about our lives. She has had a really difficult time, and through her I could see what it meant to live through faith. When it was her time to be baptised on Sunday morning, it was cold and rainy. But as God would have it, by the time she got in the pool, the rain had almost stopped and there was a big, beautiful rainbow behind her. It was like God was trying to tell her that the rain is over; the bad times are up.

So, I went to SPCC with Jo, we had lunch and then I headed home. Matt came over and I fell asleep with him. He is really so sweet and amazing; always understanding and giving. When I’m with him I feel like I can really be myself. I almost forget about what an awful person I was when I was with R. I guess it further re-inforces the idea that you should  be with someone who makes you a better person. I’m at such a better place now but sometimes I can’t help but think of him. He has not emailed me for a few weeks now and I wonder if he’s fine. I still care about him as a person but at the same time I think I should just let it go. I wonder if he’s met someone else, or probably dead or in jail.

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